I know, right! weird blog name?
Well, I happen to stumble upon this amazing girl on Quora and I am totally amazed.
This girl is just 20 years old and how wise does she sound? This is actually marveling.
For more details on Quora, it is a platform which is used to ask questions on any topic. The beauty of platform is that questions can be answered by any person reading them. So very naturally, the person who is asking the question will get a lot of perspectives to his question.
This amazing girl, Kiara happen to be a 20 years old on the way of becoming college teacher. She lives in Italy. Her dad is doctor fighting hard against corona virus. She has a 25 years old elder sister but from her answer it feels that she is the one who is wiser.
Also, she is in a beautiful relationship with his long distance boyfriend.
Everything seems to be good and positive in her life and I feel that is the reason I admire her so much after reading her couple of answers to various questions related to life in general. But hey, just stop.
Life is not all rosy for her as well. She happened to be a victim of sexual harassment, slut shaming, abusive relationship, teenage rebellion and what not?
The best thing I liked about her is that she overcame everything and have came out as a beautiful (both inside and outside) lady.
I just wish I could have so much clarity on what I wanted to do or what type of person I wanted to be with in my 20s.
Hell, I don’t have clarity on what i really want to do in my life in even early 30s. Now, when I have a vague idea of what I really want to do, I feel somehow that I have missed so much that I really cannot do.
The worst thing about it is that my potential would be unused for the rest of my life.
Yes, I do have a job but I don’t have a career. Everything I do, it feels like this is not “it”.
Sometimes, I feel there is something wrong with me and I will not be satisfied with my career for my whole life.
Probably, I will get used to it with time but I will never be able to realize my full potential like i have said earlier.
Why purpose is so important to me?
Why I cannot be satisfied by doing job which is paying my bills very easily. It always feels that something is lacking but why does it feel always. Why am i a restless soul?
Why cannot i be satisfied in what i have?
I think it is high time i should start practicing gratitude in my life to bring back that placid satisfaction and lost happiness.
I know I have screwed it up badly in my previous office and current office by not fixing a goal and following it religiously and somehow I get the idea that I will screw up my next station as well unless i fix this problem of creeping dissatisfaction.
I have not done my job and have not lived my life very well till today, but the best thing is that now I am realizing this, I can fix it.
May be force of this entire universe with me and may be I able to do what I needed to, to live happily.
Why i cannot fix a purpose and be fine with it?
Why I cannot be fine with the goal of becoming a teacher in College,like Kiara Bay wants to be one.
I feel that probably this is one of the reason why her story strongly resonates with me because her dream is similar to my dream but perhaps she has necessary courage and determination to do it while it feels as of today I had nothing except creeping dissatisfaction and the ability to crib at everything which god (universe) had given me.
I understand that my some of the wishes have not been granted and fulfilled but tell me, who is the one whose every wish at all points of time have been fulfilled by universe. Sometimes universe withhold her ability to grant our wishes because we are not in a rightful state to receive it and it has happened with me as well.
That’s why some of my wishes have not been granted true. The best part of this scheme that she has given me wisdom eventually to realize it and to work for it.
From today, I will be making and keeping a promise of practicing gratitude that universe has given me everything in abundance.
I have a very loving and adorable family.
I have a very loving fiance.
I have a job that can pay my bills and can make a future money reserve which will be needed for those 6 years.
I have a good body to which I start loving more from today by exercising and meditation.
For now, lets focus on preceding points and practice gratitude and probably the goal gets cleared on the way to practice gratitude.